365 Days

365 Days

Postby GoD_GraveDancer » Sat Oct 15, 2016 4:59 am

I know we dont normally touch on serious subjects here, but I'm going to now.

October 15, 2015

That was the day my stepson took his last breath. No, he wasn't in an accident. No, he didn't have some incurable disease. But yet he did have a disease - ADDICTION. I'm not posting this to seek sympathy or condolences. I'm posting this in hopes that anyone reading this who is suffering from addiction can get the help they deserve and need.

Many of you have gamed with him - Tonymusico or dimebagtony. Some of you even have him on your friends list. He's no longer gaming - anything. He played a game with drugs and LOST. There is no revive. There is no respawn. GAME OVER.

His story is simple and like many, many others. He was hospitalized a few years back with appendicitis and was prescribed some narcotic pain killers upon release. This began his addiction. He got hooked. His body craved the high the prescription pain killers provided. He started buying them from friends, because he always needed more . . . more . . . more. More pills. More pills than his doctor could prescribe. He started stealing to feed this addiction. He could never get enough to satisfy his body's needs.

Finally, the government tightened the ropes on prescription pain killers - mostly opiates and narcotics. These new regulations led many addicts to heroine. Heroine, the cheap pain killer, but also the unregulated pain killer. See, with a pill, you always knew what you were getting, but with heroine, it was a crap shoot. It could be weak or it could be strong, you never knew.

Tony struggled with this addiction for many years. We helped him fight. We fought with him when he gave up. We supported him the best we could. It wasnt enough. The night Tony died, he wasn't looking for heroine. He was asking friends for a pain killer. One pill - thats all he wanted. Sleep, the pill would allow him to sleep. He had just started collage. He hadnt used heroine in months. He was winning his battle. But, none of his friends had a pill. One friend did have heroine. Tony said NO to that friend several times that night. He did not want that. He was better than that, but in the end, it was his only option. He needed a fix, something to relive the pain. Heroine was the only choice. He shot his fatal dose around 5pm that night. We found his lifeless body about four hours later.

He left behind two beautiful boys, my grandsons. He also left behind a lot of hurt. Hurt that didnt have to be.



Tony was a very talented musician, singer, songwriter. Below is an original he wrote about his fight with addiction.

If any of you are struggling from addiction of any kind, I welcome you - I beg you, to PM me. This disease of addiction, specifically heroine addiction, has taken a very strong hold in almost every community. We read of several local overdoses EVERY DAY. I've dedicated my free time over the last year to help those in need. I'll be helping for a long time to come. If you need help, simply reach out.

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Re: 365 Days

Postby SmellyUndies » Sat Oct 15, 2016 1:51 pm

Woah, I'm deeply sorry for your loss, I can't imagine the pain you and your family have been through, that's more than any family should have to deal with.
It's good that your able to speak out and offer help to those that need it especially when addiction of any kind can tear people apart.

Addiction is one thing I have always tried my best to stay away from, I don't touch alcohol, never smoked, never touched any drugs and I'm pretty thankful that up until recently they weren't in circles I interacted in.
People have said I'm boring because I never did those things but I see it as I don't need a crutch to enjoy life and I don't want to give an inch towards possibly getting hooked on something that could ruin not only my life, but the others around me.

Thank you for sharing your personal story and I hope it's a great wake up call to anyone in a similar situation battling a form of addiction.
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Re: 365 Days

Postby Musashi1596 » Wed Oct 19, 2016 2:53 pm

Like Smelly, I tend to try and stay away from that sort of thing too. Like many, I've seen some of the damage that addiction can cause, and how hard it can be to fight it. Thank you for sharing your story, Gravy, but I am very sorry that you had cause to do so.
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